i can't find the words

that last entry was a trick! you see, i am not really a hysterical prepubescent girl! although sometimes i dream…

but i really am unemployed. and my dad constantly yells at me for being such a lazy bum/good for nothing waste of life/spoiled little shit (rated G/PG/PG-13, your guess is as good as mine as to which he’ll use next). he also gives me applications to lousy jobs, the last was mcdonald’s. meanwhile, i am pursuing a job at a drive-through coffee stand that isn’t quite big enough to take a nap in. but he doesn’t seem to understand that getting a job is not always an immediate thing.

anyhow, you might wonder how i am spending my days, since i work zero hours per week. well, last week, i did a lot of driving, almost a solid 500 miles. this week, however, i’ve kept it under 100. so, since i am not leaving town, what is there to do?

first of all, i sleep past 1:00 every day. this allows me to skip both lunch and breakfast and to be hungry at really strange hours. then i usually sit around and read the paper or watch the telly for an hour or two. sometimes i will go to goodwill or a cd store

(aside: i am currently considering asking out the girl at cd reunion – not only does she love elliott smith, but she drives the same car as me, only red. wish me luck)

after that to spend the money i don’t have, but i rediscovered the joy of eBay yesterday, so my shopping trips will probably become less frequent. by then, it is dinner time, so i join my family for some sort of meal that requires that i leave the table and fix myself a gardenburger. my mom must’ve forgotten that chicken and shrimp are made out of meat.

oh, did i mention that i am ripping all of my cds onto my computer? ever since that awful computer crash back in april, my playlist has been quite skimpy. so i started the whole process of copying them in alphabetical order, and downloading whatever was stolen from me last summer. i am up to the letter v, so i only have about 15 more to go, and then i can start burning the cds that were stolen. this is what i do when i have a few free minutes.

and when it gets really late, i start writing. not that you would be able to tell. see, i found this journal lying around that was too big to fit in my pants pocket (and thus too big for everyday use). but i still wanted to use it, so i just started writing. and i’ll eventually tape things to it also. i think it might end up quite funny, but i might be the only person who’ll ever say that.

dear diary,

wow, it has been a few days since i had a chat w/ you! i guess i’ve just been so busy being popular. you know how it is. since i don’t have a job, i have plenty of time every day to hang out w/ friends, go shopping, and sing along to the radio. did i mention going shopping? i’ve spent so much money on clothes and stuff this week, i hope my dad gives me some cash soon. i don’t know what i’d do if i couldn’t go shopping… probably die! i’ve been trying to tan too, i bet i’ll get asked out twice as much if i’m nice and dark for the rest of the summer. anyway, i’ve got to get to bed now, i need my beauty sleep!

-t

ps bobby walked past me in the hall today and totally SMILED RIGHT AT ME!!!!!!!!!

so, i managed to get a nice sunburn from two days in columbia, after emerging from a week in the bahamas as pale as ever. of course, i didn’t even think of taking suntan lotion when all i was doing was going 100 miles west of here. oh well.

umm, so i had sushi for the first time the other night. seeing as how sushi is usually made with some sort of meat, my options were pretty limited… in fact, my only choice was the kappa maki, which is made with cucumbers. not only was this tasty, but it was also quite easy on the wallet. as was the green tea, which was absent from the bill. of course, my luck ran dry when i tried the wasabi, not knowing that it was in fact wasabi — i had at least 10 times the suggested serving. but now my sinuses are clear.

oh, and today, i had lunch at ST. LOUIS bread co. with the always lovely shahla. it probably would’ve been a more timely lunch if i hadn’t taken an hour to find her apartment… directions have just not been my cup of tea recently.

(oh, ps — kristen, i am finally caught up in my journal… i had to take some time off after writing on the plane home)

refer to the picture above if you would like to know what sitting on the beach was like.

refer to the previous entry if you would like to know what the trip home was like.

refer to someone smiling if you would like to know what winning $170 at blackjack was like.

refer to anything by david sedaris if you would like to know what humorous writing is like.

refer to the first two sentences again if you would like to know what a roller coaster is like.

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